Am I on the Road to Nowhere?

Have you ever found yourself walking a strange path…not sure where you are or where you’re going?

It’s not the same as the road less traveled—which, in itself, signals that you have had some level of decision-making in your expedition. It’s also not a “how did I get here?” moment (and yes, I’m at two great Talking Heads songs and counting), which sounds vaguely promising.

No. I’m talking about a straight up, hands thrown in the air, directionally challenged moment. Even Alice knows, when she falls into the rabbit hole, that she is going down, down, down. I’m not sure if I’m going up, down, or out.

Which leads me to seek a spiritual navigational assist.

If you’re like me, you’ve done your research, you’ve done “the work.” You’ve listened to life coaches explain that “when everything feels like it’s falling apart, it’s actually working out FOR you.” And that if you trust your gut, you’ll find your way. And maybe, like me, you’ve read, listened, meditated, prayed and manifested your brains out and now you’re a sloggy mess of enlightened phrases mixed with “Look Blue! There’s another clue!”

And still I ask (and maybe you do, too), where’s my big “Aha!”? Where’s my Mary Tyler More throwing her hat in the air moment?

It’s not that all is down, lots of things are good. It’s just that uncertainty creeps into corners of happy rooms, patiently waiting to cast its shadow at just the wrong time.

It’s the changing part of lane changes that is both empowering and terrifying.

And, although I love the song, I hope that I am not on the road to nowhere.

What say you? Feeling confident or having a moment?

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